发现的地方。)
Ifyoufindit—thenGodhasbeenkindtome.
Ifyoudon't—thenletthisletterbemysecret.AtreehollowwhereIwhisperthethingsIcannotsayoutloud.
(如果你找到了这封信——那一定是上帝对我的恩赐。如果你找不到——那就让这封信做我的树洞吧。满足我倾诉那些无法说出口的话的欲望。)
Ikeepthinkingaboutthatnight.Thesnowwasfallingoutside,andyouwerestandingbythewindow,lookingatthecityburninginthedistance.Youdidn'tknowIwaswatchingyou.Yourbackwasverystraight.Yourshadowwasverylong.AndIthought—thisistheloneliestmanIhaveeverseen.
(我一直在想那个夜晚。窗外在下雪,你站在窗前,望着远处燃烧的城市。你不知道我在看你。你的背影很直。你的影子很长。我想——这是我见过的最孤独的人。)
Iwantedtowalkoverandputmyhandonyourshoulder.Ididn't.IwasafraidyouwouldturnaroundandIwouldseesomethinginyoureyesthatIcouldn'thandle.
(我想走过去,把手放在你的肩膀上。但我没有。我怕你转过头来,我会在你眼睛里看到某种我承受不了的东西。)
Butnow,aloneinthisroomthatstillsmellsfaintlyofyou,IfindIhavemorecourageonpaperthanIeverhadinperson.
(但现在,独自站在这间还残留着你气息的房间里,我发现自己在纸上比当面要勇敢得多。)
Iimagineushavingdinnertogether.